Well today started the preparation of getting ready to go to SWLC the weekend of Jan 23-25, 2009. I made the decision that I would not unpack my bags except for things that needed to be washed when I return from MAL on Monday, Jan 19, 2009. This will make packing for the trip a lot easier since I will only have 3 days to get ready. I have also made arrangement with Persephone, who is driving, to put my luggage in her car on Thursday, Jan 22 so that it will be easier for her and Daddy H to just pick me up at work and we hit the road.
Daddy H and I have been discussing protocol and what will work for the both of us. I am not a high protocol boy. I do not believe that any sub should be ignored or treated as if they don't exist by people interacting with the Dom. I will be following service protocol but I think it will be much easier for me than the last two years as I will not have to be Uber Control boy to keep Daddy H on Schedule. If I am not mistaken in my thought process Daddy H will be the one keeping the schedule and making sure we are where we need to be when we need to be. I will enjoy not having to be "pushy boy". Daddy H and I will come up with a signal so that if I am not at his side and he needs something thing or needs me I can be at his side in an instant.
While I am at MAL I am going to be looking for a toybag specifically for mine and Daddy H's toys. I will be fantastic to have our toybag and if Daddy H wants to go to any of the play parties i will have no trepidation going with him or even playing with him in public. When I attended SWLC there was always a feeling of inadequacy and that we (Daddy Eric and I) were not going to fit in with the pansexual crowd at the play party. I am done worrying about the little shit like that. I am who I am and If there is a women I feel comfortable playing with wants to play with me, it doesn't mean that I am "turning straight". If my straight Daddy wants to play with me and people don't understand the dynamics then they can just get over themselves. My relationships, my family, my play partners are just that mine. We (myself and whomever I am playing with) is our decision and how we play and when we play, as long as we are not breaking any rules of the play space, is no one's concern but ours.
I am enjoying turning some beliefs, perceptions, and even some "rules" on there ear and I hope that I keep doing it each and every day of my life.
Thank you to my friends, my family and my Daddies for helping me learn this and hold true to the motto I created back in 2003 "What other people think doesn't matter. What matters is being who you are and who you want to be."